Xmas this week

I'm really sleepy. I haven't been able to sleep in the last 2 days for various reasons. I'm tired again. This really sucks because this month is supposed to be my "light" block. Next block is going to be hell again. I need a vacation. I need a real vacation where I become a vegetable and never leave the bed. That's what I want to do. I want to do nothing.

Scared about raising a child? Don't be.

Are you about to have a child and you're wondering and worried whether you are up to the challenge of raising another lifeform? Don't be worried. I may have never met you but I can confidently say that you'll be fine.

I have seen and I have met people/kids that are dumber than a sack of rotting potatoes raise kids. Sure, the kids turn out dumber than a smaller sack of rotting potatoes but they live and grow and become burdens to society in no time.

Yesterday, I met a couple having their second child in 21 months. The woman/girl was 20 years old. The guy, about the same age, was sitting next to her without a care in the world. He didn't give a shit about anything. He cared not that the girl had serious heart problems. He cared not that they were below the poverty line because none of them worked. They were having kids because they had sex a bunch of times and now this thing was growing inside a belly. As soon as that belly is opened up with a knife a second time, I'm sure a third will be brought into the world. And then another. And another...

I asked him if they would consider using contraceptives in the future because the girl could die soon if they kept at this pace. The girl's heart was failing. In fact, she may die giving birth to this fetus (and the fetus would probably die too). They told me that they're Catholic and that they have morals about stuff like that and wouldn't consider it.

Awesome.

He said they'll raise kids "right" and "s'all good". Fucking fantastic.

See how simple it is? It is all good. These mature kids are having kids and having a good time. This optimistic story should strike any doubt from your heart when it comes to your ability to raise a child in this world. They're doing it and so can you.

Exploring the unknown

I spend most of my day telling people what to do. I don't do it because I love controlling people. It's my job. Today, I told someone that they need to change their diet dramatically. In fact, I told them they need to cut out a big part of their diet. I told them to stop eating meat.

After this encounter, I thought to myself, "would I be able to do this?"

I don't have an answer. I don't know if I could become a vegetarian. I really love beef. I eat beef every other day. If i don't eat it, i get a headache and I crave it. Then I eat it. That is the cycle of my life.

So if someone told me that I could never eat meat, I don't know if I could survive. Perhaps there are manuals out there where it tells people how to wean themselves off of the sweet sweet deliciousness of burnt animal flesh.

Happy Xmas

So who wants to come over to my house and celebrate? I don't fuck around.

Actually, we have a lot of family coming over and I do my best to make the gathering an enjoyable experience. One way of doing that is to eat and drink quality goods. Dom and Blue Label should suffice for this year. Sweeeeeeet

On another note, I have finished my Christmas shopping. I hope people enjoy their gifts.

UPDATE: Lest you think I'm Mr. Banks, let me make it clear. It is rare for my family to have so many relatives visit us during the holidays. As a special celebration, we are going all out. That is the reason for the extravaganza and the flowing of rare whiskeys.

Sorry Anonymous...

...Somebody beat you to the punch.

Droid wha?, Google, Nexus yeah!

I never understood the hype behind Droid by Motorola. It looked pretty ugly and the hardware was "meh" at best.

But now I'm excited.

Nexus 1 is coming soon and it's a phone designed by Google, made by HTC. Now THAT is something that interests me. Android has a lot of potential. I see a future where all of the google applications online (including google translate, google maps, google chat, google docs, etc) are integrated into the android and available 24/7 on the phone. Can you imagine being able to access translation tool on the fly integrated with google voice/google ap? Holy shit, now that is amazing.

The other awesome news is that unlike the Droid, the Nexus will apparently be sold by Google unlocked and have the ability to access both GSM 3g networks in the US.

Seriously. This is great news. This is the game changer that everyone has been waiting for.

If google does another one of those exclusive deal bull shit with a particular carrier however, I will be disappointed. But if the prelim plans that are leaked on the web are true, I may be sporting an android phone come end of next year.

And because this phone is GSM, the google phone can be sold all around the world at launch. Fucking amazing. I still don't think this phone will topple iphone's dominance but I think it will make Apple take notice finally. All of these other supposed "iphone killers" were absolutely retarded. Nothing can touch the Iphone right now. Even the haters know this deep inside. But with the Nexus, things may finally change.

Sleep

Today was the first day in 6 months I have had the opportunity to sleep more than 8 hours. It was great. I woke up at 2 pm today.

I wish I could sleep in every day. It is a good feeling. Sure, most of the day is gone but who cares! You get to sleep.

I woke up and went to the local Starbucks. Even on this gloomy day, I ordered an ice coffee. But they messed up my coffee by putting sugar in it. Why must everything in this world try my patience?

Now I'm eating my Asian Seafood pancake. It's pretty tasty. I'm very happy that I get the weekend off. I feel like I'm on vacation.

Dickerdoodle

2008 submissions Here

Penny Arcade is having their yearly Dickerdoodle contest. Take a look and submit your pics to them today!

I'm looking at you Anonymous. Go bake some of that Dickerdoodle. And they love the bucookie.

Futures

The last few days have been hectic. I certainly did not plan them to be hectic but it turned out that way. Weird life lessons were learned and disappointments were experienced. I just wanted to start the holiday season.

I still have NO presents for any one. This is a problem. I was thinking about hiring someone to buy my gifts. But that would cost extra money.

Today is Friday and I plan to relax a little bit. Tomorrow morning, I'll be driving home (hopefully I can get through the snow/rain storm expected). I was going to drive tonight but it might be dangerous. I also didn't want to get stuck in the mountains in the middle of the night.

On a more positive note, I was able to get an extension for turning in my proof of donation to the state. Now I have until end of Jan. Huzzay.

confused 2

I don't know what I thought I would get out of following in this path. I may have had some idealistic scenario worked out in my head when I started on this journey but I don't remember it anymore. Was there a happy ending? If so, where did the happiness come from?

Money? Prestige? Intellectual satisfaction? I just don't know.

I am thankful that I have the opportunity to experience what I'm experiencing. However, satisfaction is something totally different.

If you ask me right now, "Are you satisfied with your life?" I would answer, "no."

So how do I turn that "no" into a "yes"? Well, if you find an answer, please let me know.

And what is the deal with life being complicated?

confused

I'm confused about life. I see people writing books about how one's should live life and how one should interact with others during our short stay on earth. There is no definitive answer which can be confusing and annoying.

It was easier earlier in life when people told you what to do. Now, I dictate the course of life...which is frustrating and confusing.

So far, I've been taking things day by day. It allows me to survive but my long term goals are still unclear. Where should I go? What should I do? I thought going into this profession would resolve some of those answers but it has not. (Surprise surprise).

Ugh, time to work. I will continue my thoughts tomorrow.

Rollin'

Well, another work week starts.

I have been working everyday since Sunday of last week. I really really really need a day off.

Working 13 days in a row taxes the soul. You're probably saying, "But you have no soul."

Touché

Working that hard hurts my brain though.

It's christmas time and I should be happier. And I am happy because my 7 day vacation is coming up. I get christmas off!! AND new years!! I am really excited. I get to be home doing nothing on those days. I may even be able to watch some marathon. Hopefully, it will be lucy.

Done

My hope for a quiet night went down the toilet when I realized stupid ass kids were drinking and O.D.ing on everything. They kept coming. I had to greet these assholes all night long.

It's the same ol' story. Some dumbass drank too much hard liquor in a short amount of time. The fucker passes out and almost dies.

I am exhausted. I have not slept in 36 hours. My eyes hurt. My whole body aches. I'm starving.

And guess what, I get to work again tomorrow.

FOOOOD!

Chicken Fried Bacon. Wow. I want to try it.

So close

Tomorrow, I have to survive 24 hours of hell. ABSOLUTE HELL.

After that, I can begin to enjoy some of the holiday festivities. I hope I will survive without too much psychological damage.

I have eaten at a 3 star Michelin restaurant

Daniel received 3 star Michelin for 2010 because of 2009 performance.

Therefore, I have eaten at a 3 star Michelin restaurant. Heh.

It was a fantastic experience and I hope I can return there some day.

Rule of Gifts

Anonymous wrote that for xmas, I should give out money.

It's funny how gift cards are considered acceptable gift items but people avoid giving real money as a gift.

I will not be giving money for xmas. For my friends, I try to give them things that they probably wouldn't buy for themselves but they would get a kick out of it for a few minutes after they open the gift on xmas day.

I thought I had xmas gifts ready to go but plans fell through. So I'm back at the drawing board.

I'm running out of time. Maybe I should just give some pencils or something.